Today has been a good day. (...Yeah, I wasn't expecting me to say that either.)
Aug. 26th, 2010 09:58 pm
I woke up to an evil amount of pain in my back and a distinct lack of money in my bank account. One phone call and a couple of painkillers later, and both of those problems were sorted. And the day only got better from there.
Some of the things I did today:
Okay, there were some other things that happened that weren't so good, but it's the end of the day and I feel good, and that doesn't happen often, so. I'm just happy that I've had a good day that's left me with more mental energy than normal.
Having said that, I am completely shattered, and should probably go to sleep now.
Some of the things I did today:
- Had a bath
- Listened to music (including a few songs I haven't heard for ages)
- Came up with a new fic idea
- Sat out in the garden just to feel the breeze
- Started organising something small for next month
Okay, there were some other things that happened that weren't so good, but it's the end of the day and I feel good, and that doesn't happen often, so. I'm just happy that I've had a good day that's left me with more mental energy than normal.
Having said that, I am completely shattered, and should probably go to sleep now.
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May. 12th, 2010 11:47 pm
The last few days have been horrible. I've got the worst cold that's ever existed (I'm having trouble staying stood up for more than a few minutes at a time, and breathing is randomly difficult, but none of that is going to matter if I actually succeed in sneezing my head off (and if anyone could do that, it'd be me, as anyone who's ever seen/heard me sneeze could tell you)), I've not been sleeping (getting to sleep has been difficult because of the cold and then I've been waking up because of nightmares, and it turns out that napping while the sun's up gives me headaches, because that's all I need), and everything went so badly wrong yesterday that I'm tempted to pretend that the whole day just didn't exist. Today has only been bearable because I've been laid out resting on the sofa, playing Final Fantasy X-2 (don't ask) while dosed up on painkillers. Oh, and I had hot orange and honey (which is like hot lemon and honey, but for people who are too ill to leave the house and buy lemons/lemon juice and just happen to have some oranges lying around), even though trying to make it nearly killed me.
It's been a bad few days, and I've been pretty miserable, and tomorrow's not going to be any better - it's my last therapy session, so I have to be there whether I'm well enough or not, and I'm also worried about how I'm going to cope without therapy (I'm not lying when I say that my sessions are the only things that have kept me functional over the last 5 months, although I have come a long way in that time, so now it's just a matter of keeping that up?).
And then I read this comment.
And all I can say is thank you ♥
(PS: It's not that I don't appreciate the comments in this thread - I do, and I'll reply as soon as I can find the words to - but that anonymous one really hit me.)
(PSS: In case you're wondering how ill I am, it's just taken me over 2 hours to write this, because my brain just isn't cooperating.)
It's been a bad few days, and I've been pretty miserable, and tomorrow's not going to be any better - it's my last therapy session, so I have to be there whether I'm well enough or not, and I'm also worried about how I'm going to cope without therapy (I'm not lying when I say that my sessions are the only things that have kept me functional over the last 5 months, although I have come a long way in that time, so now it's just a matter of keeping that up?).
And then I read this comment.
And all I can say is thank you ♥
(PS: It's not that I don't appreciate the comments in this thread - I do, and I'll reply as soon as I can find the words to - but that anonymous one really hit me.)
(PSS: In case you're wondering how ill I am, it's just taken me over 2 hours to write this, because my brain just isn't cooperating.)
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May. 7th, 2010 07:33 amThings I have done since this time last week that I can maybe be a little happy about (and probably would have made posts about at the time if I hadn't been so busy/tired):
[Edit] Also, I started myself a thread in![[personal profile]](http://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
dingsi's You're So Sexy meme, so that you can give me compliments and stuff tomorrow, if you so desire. Or you could start your own thread so I can compliment you, which is why I'm mentioning it in the first place.
(I'm totally using it as an exercise in how to take compliments - I'm pretty sure that's not what it's there for, but I need to learn to do that before I can use it as something to make me feel good about myself on bad days. Baby steps.)
- Was even more useful than I normally am at volunteering
- Tried not to back down during conversations just because people didn't want to hear what I was saying (I may have failed, but I did try)
- Sat through Avatar, even though I didn't actually want to, because I knew it would make someone else happy (I knew about the issues, but no-one warned me about how boring and predictable it was)
- Ordered a copy of Final Fantasy X-2 for myself as a present, and still don't feel guilty about it
- Saw myself in the mirror while only in my underwear and did not cringe
- Allowed myself to sleep for longer when I really needed to
[Edit] Also, I started myself a thread in
dingsi's You're So Sexy meme, so that you can give me compliments and stuff tomorrow, if you so desire. Or you could start your own thread so I can compliment you, which is why I'm mentioning it in the first place.(I'm totally using it as an exercise in how to take compliments - I'm pretty sure that's not what it's there for, but I need to learn to do that before I can use it as something to make me feel good about myself on bad days. Baby steps.)
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Mar. 30th, 2010 10:08 am
Apparently this is going to be one of those days - my eyes are crying, but I'm not. Does that even make sense? I keep being surprised by the tears running down my face, because I don't feel sad, just numb.
Well, that and tired. I've slept so much over the last couple of days. I had a three hour nap on sunday, and still had a full night's sleep that night. Last night I was asleep by 8, and I woke up at 8 this morning. The worst thing is that I'm fighting to stay awake now, and I've not even been awake for two hours.
Also, ow. Whatever I did to myself during those 12 hours of sleep, I would like to not do ever again. My left wrist hurts to the point of needing to be strapped up, and there is a line of bruises on... does that count as my chest? I'm not sure - there's my breasts and then, about 5cm further down, there's this line of bruises. Or possibly one big line-shaped bruise. Either way, it hurts more in the middle than anywhere else.
I think this proves something that I already knew, but that you probably didn't - I should never share a bed with anyone. I mean, if I can hurt myself this badly when I'm sleeping alone, imagine what I'd end up doing to another person.
Well, that and tired. I've slept so much over the last couple of days. I had a three hour nap on sunday, and still had a full night's sleep that night. Last night I was asleep by 8, and I woke up at 8 this morning. The worst thing is that I'm fighting to stay awake now, and I've not even been awake for two hours.
Also, ow. Whatever I did to myself during those 12 hours of sleep, I would like to not do ever again. My left wrist hurts to the point of needing to be strapped up, and there is a line of bruises on... does that count as my chest? I'm not sure - there's my breasts and then, about 5cm further down, there's this line of bruises. Or possibly one big line-shaped bruise. Either way, it hurts more in the middle than anywhere else.
I think this proves something that I already knew, but that you probably didn't - I should never share a bed with anyone. I mean, if I can hurt myself this badly when I'm sleeping alone, imagine what I'd end up doing to another person.
Here, have a quick summary of my week.
( Monday: Jobcentre )
( Tuesday: Therapy )
( Wednesday: Survival )
( Thursday: Shopping )
( Friday: Volunteering )
And that was my week.
( Monday: Jobcentre )
( Tuesday: Therapy )
( Wednesday: Survival )
( Thursday: Shopping )
( Friday: Volunteering )
And that was my week.
This post is the result of me staying up all night for the second time in three days. And pie.
Mar. 6th, 2010 06:12 am
Question: How do so many people have large amounts of dreamwidth invites to give away?
[Facts: I've been at DW since 1 May 2009. Since then, I've been given 8 invite codes. I was not given all 8 codes at the same time. If I had any codes left at the time that the people in charge decided to give out more, I did not recieve any more codes.
Assumption: Last fact is true for all users - other account types may have different rules.]
[Facts: I've been at DW since 1 May 2009. Since then, I've been given 8 invite codes. I was not given all 8 codes at the same time. If I had any codes left at the time that the people in charge decided to give out more, I did not recieve any more codes.
Assumption: Last fact is true for all users - other account types may have different rules.]