You'll make it. You've got good friends.

I, er. Sorry about just disappearing again; I'm sure by now many of you are used to this, but I never do mean it to happen. Ah well — I had a ball of sad that I threw myself into a creative fugue to try and get over, and I did all right for a bit, but then the apathy mists descended again and it's all grey and blah and I was never going to get around to coming back online, so I ... forced myself to be social again. It only took me five days of constant poking, sigh. I may end up disappearing into a pile of ebooks so uh, if I disappear again, sorry, I am battling the brain weasels. :/

But okay THINGS HAPPENED while I was off staring into space and sleeping a lot (oh god it is so difficult to stay awake why do I have two chronic illnesses that make me sleep forever whyyyyyy) and one of those things is that I got into a new fandom. ( it is a film called Tigerland and I am going to talk about it )

I have a vid rec, Something True by leanwellback, Bozz/Paxton, NSFW. These are the dudes who fall in love, the subtext is really really blatant, it's actually the first film I've seen with subtext this blatant where I haven't heard anyone who made it say the characters were together. This vid beautifully brings the subtext to text, and gah, it is SO GORGEOUS OMG ♥___♥

I also, er. I was in something of a creative fugue, like I said, and so I uh. Made some things. Before I link the Tigerland ones, have a couple of things I made before that film ate my entire face.

First there was Festivids! Vidders were revealed a few days ago, yay! I made Let It Go, Doctor Who (1996) and If You See Kate, Sugar Rush. Aliens and tiny lesbians, not bad this year. I wanted to do, like, five more vids but ran out of time. Oh well, I'll make them at some point, I'm sure.

I wrote Mark Our Height Against the Wall, Harry Potter fic, Ron/Hermione, Explicit. I got the urge to explore their relationship a bit, so this happened.

And I made Unconditional, Stuart: A Life Backwards vid, Stuart & Alexander's friendship. Warning for violence. I watched that film and thought of this song and pretty much immediately had to vid it. If you haven't seen the film or read the book, it's about a homeless man who's had a lot of shit happen to him, and done a lot of shit himself. It's ... harrowing. Beautiful, though, and I hope I've done that a bit of justice with this vid. I really love the friendship at the core of it all, so I wanted to vid it.

Okay now for the Tigerland things. I wrote, um, three fics. They're all in the same series: if it takes too long, Another Pale Moon, Tell Me Something New, all Bozz/Paxton, the first two are rated Explicit, the third Mature. I couldn't just not write fix-it fic, okay. I have more to write in this series at some point, and outside of that there may be soulbonding. Possibly daemons. Maybe somebody will be a rabbit. Who knows.

I also made, uh. Three vids in two days. I was just really inspired, okay? I HAVE SO MANY TIGERLAND FEELS. And I expressed basically all of them in the vids I made: A Sense of Identity, Bozz character study (♥ my new fictional boyfriend ♥); Chews You Up and Spits You Out, gen about how the Army breaks some of the characters (lots of violence in this); in the back of my skull, Bozz/Paxton (NSFW).

I am now so sleepy I COULD CRY so I will go fall on my face for ten hours or however long my body decides it needs. This is inconvenient, body, I have a kink_bingo fic to work on (wherein Damon Salvatore bites Sirius Black and wackiness ensues) (kinky wackiness, of course) (by the way VAMPIRE DIARIES HOLY CRAP THAT SHOW IS SO GOOD AAAAAHHHHHH *FLAILS AT YOUR FACES*). In other news, my kitten is ridiculous, Kane Ricca came back on Got To Dance and James and I were rendered incoherent to the point of sobbing on the furniture with ALL OF THE FEELS, and Alex has become cuddly with me. These things are all delightful. How are your lives coming on? ♥